Five Minute Friday: Small

The day you bring them home from the hospital they are tiny helpless creatures who depend on your faithfulness, your energy, your love.

You swaddle and change and feed and bathe and when their eyes gain focus it’s you, only you. You hold small and fragile. You are big and important. 

My children would hardly even give dad the time of day until they were through with nursing. I was ever-important and needed. This is good and tiring and just a little bit gloat-worthy.

They each grew to greater independence and there was the day when I realized everyone could buckle, bathe, feed, dress, and tie their shoes themselves. In fact, most of them became furiously independent before they could  do any of those things well. It’s ok that they wore plaid and stripes and black socks with their shorts – they did it themselves. 

small is the new big and important

Then yesterday.

I stood on the porch small and unneeded and watched her drive away, alone.

Bittersweet ran down my throat and my heart kicked me for ever letting this happen – this growing big and shrinking small and that blasted independence young adults need.

Blasted.

We talked for an hour on my bed when she came home.

Small is the new big and important.

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This post is part of Five Minute Friday, a writing exercise where Lisa-Jo hooks us up with a writing prompt each week. This week the prompt is SMALL.

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Comments

  1. says

    I think as mothers, small definitely brings back those baby memories. That’s part of what I wrote about today, too. My oldest is just 4. I can’t even imagine the feelings when he can drive.

  2. says

    I posted a picture of my son the other day. My 13 yr old who is now taller than me, by a lot. The one who wears size 11 1/2 mens shoes and sounds like a man. I don’t even know how that happened. You’re so right, it’s bittersweet. Seeing them grow up and loving it but also know that as they grow up, they grow away in their own right.

  3. Penny says

    She must have gotten her driver’s license already! Did our mothers feel the same way? I think my mother did a great job of not letting me know if she did. When my oldest left home to go in the Coast Guard clear back to New Jersey for his basic training, I cried for a week after he left home. You want them to be independent, but it’s not easy to let go..then when my youngest left home to go to college it was even harder. You go from feeling so needed to feeling so left behind. So important to “let go and let God”.

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